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2020 has taken it’s toll, but I’m keeping going
Why I’m struggling but can see the light
I think it’s fair to say that 2020 has been a pretty crap year for many people. I’m not alone in thinking that, and around World Mental Health Day, I’ve decided to list all the crappy reasons why my year has been among the worst of the many I’ve spent going around the sun, but which I’ve survived and will continue to fight against.
I felt I had to put daughter №1 into care
I’ve covered this in more detail in previous stories, but the sheer stress that this situation has placed on me has been immense. The feelings of failure, anger, regret, frustration, and more have been ongoing for months.
Why have I done this? Is this the right thing? How can I give up on her? Why is she doing this to us? Why won’t anyone else help? The questions and doubts linger.
I’ve been through two periods of counselling this year, which has been a new experience for me. I’m an Englishman, from the north of England, and we’re not renowned for being able to speak about our feelings. It’s hard.
I never feel that my problems are worthy of discussion, and would rather talk about…
